Before I had the time to blink my eyes. 2007 is coming to an end already.
This is a year make up of good and some real bad times.
First off, this is the one year I turned 18, never will be another year I'm 18. The surprise party for me was such a surprise that I'm surprise I surprised myself! Haha. Lotsa thanks to the good old friends! I don't feel old or young. It's just another day to me other than the fact that I have the privilege to celebrate my coming to the world on that certain day. I think our mothers are the ones who should be celebrated on our birthdays, not us, if you get the idea of what I mean.
The beginning of this year was very slow paced. Life was idle and I had hellotsa fun when I'm workin while waiting to go back to school. I've met some really friendly people that time, and though we're from total different worlds, we got along just fine.
There was nothing to worry about all day. All I had to do was attend work, sell my stuff and get my pay. And often, I played and have too much fun when I was working which makes work sounds fun and not at all like work. I miss those days, really.
My friendship is always at stake but I never expect it to take a turn so 180 degree-ish. Things which are bad has become worse and really bad. The second part of the year is the time when dramas happen. My life has always been so simple and peaceful that I'd never imagined, what more expect those dramas would happen.
I wouldn't elaborate farther because I don't know what to say about it other than phrasing it into “really really bad” I guess somewhere in me, I'd see the days coming but just never expect it to be this bad. Anyway I'm pretty sure I can manage and I'll just let things fall off naturally and let it be. I won't take any extra effort to make it better or to worsen<-any word like this?) it.
By the end of 2007, I finally realized how time wash those memories away, dampen my passion, dry my tears, delete those words that was in me for such a long time.
Suddenly it hit me that I'm no longer caged in the emotional dungeon and for the first time I actually realized that I'm happy when everything that's happening around me is giving me enough reasons to be sad and miserable. It's like, finally, I'm able to free myself from the past(is there really a past?), finally I'll never feel guilty for being happy, finally I can have so much peace and calmness to myself where I feel that I don't need any assurance from anyone. I'm just being very me and I'm happy and contented being that way.
But I'm still not very sure. I guess I'll just let the heart decide, maybe?
On another note, I hate to give up but on certain things, I guess I should for goodness' sake. I have not figure this out though. Helping myself along the way to 2008!
This is a year make up of good and some real bad times.
First off, this is the one year I turned 18, never will be another year I'm 18. The surprise party for me was such a surprise that I'm surprise I surprised myself! Haha. Lotsa thanks to the good old friends! I don't feel old or young. It's just another day to me other than the fact that I have the privilege to celebrate my coming to the world on that certain day. I think our mothers are the ones who should be celebrated on our birthdays, not us, if you get the idea of what I mean.
The beginning of this year was very slow paced. Life was idle and I had hellotsa fun when I'm workin while waiting to go back to school. I've met some really friendly people that time, and though we're from total different worlds, we got along just fine.
There was nothing to worry about all day. All I had to do was attend work, sell my stuff and get my pay. And often, I played and have too much fun when I was working which makes work sounds fun and not at all like work. I miss those days, really.
My friendship is always at stake but I never expect it to take a turn so 180 degree-ish. Things which are bad has become worse and really bad. The second part of the year is the time when dramas happen. My life has always been so simple and peaceful that I'd never imagined, what more expect those dramas would happen.
I wouldn't elaborate farther because I don't know what to say about it other than phrasing it into “really really bad” I guess somewhere in me, I'd see the days coming but just never expect it to be this bad. Anyway I'm pretty sure I can manage and I'll just let things fall off naturally and let it be. I won't take any extra effort to make it better or to worsen<-any word like this?) it.
By the end of 2007, I finally realized how time wash those memories away, dampen my passion, dry my tears, delete those words that was in me for such a long time.
Suddenly it hit me that I'm no longer caged in the emotional dungeon and for the first time I actually realized that I'm happy when everything that's happening around me is giving me enough reasons to be sad and miserable. It's like, finally, I'm able to free myself from the past(is there really a past?), finally I'll never feel guilty for being happy, finally I can have so much peace and calmness to myself where I feel that I don't need any assurance from anyone. I'm just being very me and I'm happy and contented being that way.
But I'm still not very sure. I guess I'll just let the heart decide, maybe?
On another note, I hate to give up but on certain things, I guess I should for goodness' sake. I have not figure this out though. Helping myself along the way to 2008!
Other than all the shit that has happened, I kinda love the new me! I make some adjustments to my daily life.
I can now proudly(ehem!) tell the world that I brushed my teeth before I go to bed. If you don't get it yet, I'd only brush my teeth once a day before this, ok. And that's when I wake up. I consider that as a lifetime achievement! Suddenly, I'm no longer lazy and dirty me! :D
I do not fret as much anymore when I can't connect to the internet. You see, internet is as important as oxygen and as chocolates to me. It's a wonder how I manage to go weeks and months without MSNing and blogging(not like I blog all the time) . They should give me an award seeing how much I'm addicted being a netizen that I take InTheNet as my bff! Anyway I do know the “real reasons” why I don't feel miserable anymore whenever the connection quits. Achievement!
To me, 2008 is “just-another-year” so I’m not totally excited welcoming it. Hopefully, it will be “just-another-year” of peacefulness and quietness as I do not need any more dramas in my life. I feel honoured being unnoticed, being just me without the need to get any attention from anyone who's not important to me. Those attention whore who crave for attention from everybody, yes, I totally mean to say EVERYBODY, seriously need to get a life. They think the world revolves only around them and they alter themselves just to fit in. Seriously, get a life before you make everyone around you to turn into statues.
So I'll end this entry with a “Happy New Year!” wish to all homosapienz I know! May the NEW year be happier than the past years. :)
I WANT to be HAPPY!
I NEED to be HAPPY!
I WILL be HAPPY !
:)
1 comment:
lolx...i kinda like da 'new pei' too..honestly =) rather hav tis than da before..
well..nothih much to say ler..really not in da mood now..
anyway..happy new year 2008...
hope diz new yr wil be a better year..i stil expect sum dramas coz if there aint of it..it gonna be quite boring =D
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