Why is everybody telling me that ciggie is not good? I'm desperately in neeed of them right now. There's still half a stick stuck somewhere in my room but it won't be enough...
Lemme tell you why ciggie is good :
-will be my BEST friend who won't dump me when I need it
-help me take away stressful stuff (at least for a while)
-won't say no to me
-gives me freedom
I don't know, that's all I can think about and yet it is good enough to... have a place in my heart?
I know I might be a murderer if I'm a smoker but I don't plan to go full time. That's not my intention.
I'm a loser. I'm a goner. I cannot bring myself up to anything anymore. Did I really fall that badly?
Yesterday I'm convinced that it will be the end of something in the past and the beginning of something new. I'm convinced that I will be very happy and I'm feeling happy at that time. But look what happened to me today?
I absolutely believe that there's nothing absolute in the world. Friendships, career, family, future, relationships, all are not permanently staying the way they are right now. It might change, or it will change. Sometimes it takes a day, sometimes an hour, sometimes even when it is staying the same way for 20years, it might change suddenly the next day.
Things change because perceptions on them change. And human are the masterminds of perceptions. There's many reasons to these changes and we cannot simply point to this or that although that's what most of us has been doing up till now(me included). Pointing fingers is always the easiest thing to do but mostly get tangled up in the end.
No matter how sure we are, we are always not so sure when it comes to being sure with something. It is more to choosing what to believe than actually knowing the sure truth because no matter how true there's always no truth.
I mean, The Truth is actually what we choose to believe in. How sure are we that the truth is true? I don't know, maybe its just me, cos most of the people I see are sure about The Truth, except me of course.
Because I'm the exceptional one, I found no truth cos I'm not sure if The Truth is true.
Because I'm the exceptional one, I don't know what to believe in and what not to believe in.
Because I'm the exceptional one, I am going round and round in circles.
Because I'm the exceptional one, I still linger around seeking Truth.
5 comments:
U better don't try the cigarettes. I will kill u.. Everyone said i'm negative but you also my gang. btw, what makes u so desperate? U telling me today in bus that u r a loser. I know sure got something happen. I really want to know what's going on with you. i don't know how to comfort people. But i think listening to u is the better way. But almost everytime i see u sad. What make u think till like that? worried for u larr..
You din listen to me properly also,I said I'm a loser because I'm so afraid of the "slide" and I kept falling down when climbing the rock.Haha~ Wah worry for me lor!
wei ahpei..jgn ambil ciggie..dont ark..haih,i wonder what make til you will have the thought to take it..haih..be strong to face all the difficulty in your life k?Be happy stay happy..*muax* Take care :)
see~?
no one approves you to take it.
conclusion is : DON'T do/try stupid stuff!
i dowana give u bunga kekwa tat soon ;D
choooiiii.. touch wood u.. chao sushan. bunga kekwa? haha.. she like ros hitam lar.. apa la lu
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