Had a good two hours nap in the afternoon. I can't remember the last time I had such a satisfying sleep. Its either I sleep too long or can't sleep at all. Haha, too long means 3 or 4 hours.
Anyway usually after taking my nap I'll feel even more tired. But surprisingly, not today, eventhough today is hell of a busy and tiring day.
First I don't need my mum knocking and practically trying to rip the door off to wake me up. I don't need alarm too. And when I wake up, the feeling is indescribable!
Its feels as if you've been sleeping for hours but in reality only two hours. You can't believe the amount of energy you charged from that two hours sleep.
Words will do this no justice. I can only say that it is "Priceless!"
Gosh. So wordy. But nevermind, I feel like talking... I mean blogging :p
Know what, most of my posts are either nonsensical ones or emo ones. Most of the time, it feels good to indulge in emoness.
Not that emotality is good but it feels good to just drown in your own sorrow, in your world, without having to care or bother anyone else. Without having to consider wheter your actions will affect others or not.
Because when we are emo we usually hurt the one closest to us, not anybody else. Yes, we usually hurt ourselves more than anyone else when we're in an emo state. So it means we actually are not inflicting hurt upon others therefore yours truly feels that no one should bother us too.
Let us be. After some hours of therapeutic thinking and analysing, we will eventually feel much better. Yes, even better than you coming around telling us to cheer up but eventually leave us aside afterwards. If you wish to have a say of your mind, or you just want to show care to emo people, do it in the right way. In the way that you want people to do you.
LOL. What am I doing again talking about emoness????
Yeah, end of sidetracking and back to my posts. So yeah my posts are somewhat full of nonsensical stuff or emoness with the ocassional happie-happie ones. So today, I'll leave that all aside, and talk about what I think I should feel about my life and what I feel about my life...Any difference?? LOL
After starting school for like 5months, much has changed, and is still changing. No no no I do not mean my school life but life as in my life.
There was a period when I think I'm falling back into the mess again. I wouldn't say that it is bad or i-dunno-what. It's just bizarre. Really. Cos I really thought that I'm outta the mess. But nevermind, I guess it is okay. Sometimes during that period of time, I'm really confused and I thought I need to make decision. Wheter to terminate it or just let it roam freely. But I didn't decide on anything. And right now I feel better than ever!
Yeah, that one thing is one of the most importanest thing in me life. It has been important since a few years back but I guess I shouldn't really invest so much time and energy in thinking about it anymore. Not that it doesn't mean anything to me anymore but I believe that one have to learn to live a life, more importantly, a happy or at least, contented life even under any circumstances.
If I always feel that the world is not fair and why can others be happy but not me, I will never get to live a happy life. I will never feel contented. And I would not know what is carefree. I can't control my mind and heart that keeps me alive, but I can choose to see things in a different perspective, always.
So the isi tersirat is.....
I feel that I am 85% contented with my life right now. Like you, I feel that I have every reason to live my life. I feel that I have every reason to put a smile on my face. I feel that I have every reason to laugh, at myself and with others. I feel that I have every reason to be enjoying my youth!
Lets leave the remaining 15% for the not-so-pleasant-and-cannot-be-avoided contact with The Fuglies of the world. The Fuglies consist of people who are fugly because they lack good mannerism, courtesy, friendliness, not considerate of others bla bla bla and the list goers on. Whattodo, the world isn't perfect you see. Accept it or drown in your own tears crying and bitching about it.
HOHOHO. ;O
This convinces me more and more to apply for a place in Sabah/Sarawak! We'll see that later on next year! Hahaha. That is only if I've got results good enough to qualify to apply for local U. Yes motherfckin apply nia! I can't think of what I'm gonna do if i get bad bad bad results.
But anyway, education is not always the key to success right? I guess most of us can survive even if we are denied a place in U or whateverrshite.
Hahahaha. Congrats if you can succesfully read until here. And thank you for wasting your time, cos this ohmygodsolongandwordy post is solely meant for myself myself myself and myself only!
O.O After all the blogging, I begin to feel like indulging one more time in a two hours sleep again.
Hehehe....
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