I'm so guilty. I'm so hopeless. Never seen anyone as useless. Just so totally hopeless.

I don't feel like doing anything else, 'cept recollecting the dub dab dub dab moments. At such a time, this is going overboard. I'm still the same old hopeless selfish trash. I'm really sorry but I'm even more sorry cause I'm just saying it rather than doing something about it. I don't know how to help myself anymore, anymore.

And I can't believe it. That I'm afraid of making mistakes till that extent. This is shameful. I used to trust nothing but only my instincts. But now, where have it all gone? Eaten up by priorities and practicalities?

Well... life has to go on, i know. but letting go's never 'bout giving up and breaking hopes. if i ever do, anyway.

u won't understand. cause there's no need to. this is for myself.

for each and every one more day with them. i thank god.