If given the chance to undo my mistakes, I would, without hesitation. For I have been in the wrong and my faults were and are still there. For I can now see the clearer picture, from a better angle. For I now know that it was an expensive and unforgivable error that, unfortunately, cannot be undone.
I dreamt about it. About things when they used to be still nice. Nice does not necessarily mean that all are sugar sweet. Nice, is to be just like how it used to be, to be normal, to be back to times we had stupid laughs and much more sugar and spice. And I thought that oh, the mess had already been cleared and I need not reminiscence bout it anymore, for things are back to normal already - like how they used to be.
But it is not, when the alarm goes off, when you wake up abruptly from your sleep, still thinking that it is happy ending already. It is not okay at all to be going through that. Maybe it is guilt that's eating myself up, but that's not the purpose of this post. There are no reason for posting, other than making this solely for my own keeping. For I have nothing but regret in this. It will never be about resentment and hatred. If you understand.
I've been harsh. That is enough for me to be sorry about. Yes,maybe it was me who threw it all away, and for that, I am truly sorry. I did not bother to explain properly, and that is one of my biggest mistake.
I've been a fool, and still is one, I believe. For believing the false and pushed to a corner, the true.
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