Black Friday.

I never believe that Friday the 13th, is a bad day, until yesterday when I experienced it myself.

First off, was late by an hour to class. Not a good sign in the start of the day, I supposed. I thought nothing of it, merely brushing it off cause I'm not the sort of person to be greatly affected by grades and all these studies matters. UNLESS, we're talking bout group projects, which I dislike because :

a) I'll always feel that I didn't contribute enough (especially when i'm in the same group as smarter students). 

b) Cannot use my own idea and way to work.

Anyway enough of detour. I finally believe Friday the 13th is kinda cursed. Because...

1. I did laundry, and just when I finish hanging all of them, it was also the time it started drizzling.

2. Received 2 bad news.

3. Got more proof that a friend has changed. To the bad. I don't wanna get so emotional but I can't, it hurts.

4. FFK some friends. And make them pissed.

5. Tried to be truthful and honest, cause I thought that's most important in rship/fship, instead of hiding and lying even though I knew you'd be pissed. And I really got (almost)yelled at. 

I thought the third & fifth was the mostest worstest horriblelestest hurt, because despite foreseeing disaster I chose to tell. But the outcome is shitty. Deep down i was hoping that I'd be given the benefit of doubt but no I wasn't granted one. It's always like this, i think, no matter where am I.

I always give ppl whom I think worth it, the benefit of doubt. Cause I believe that not all that we see are true, and not all truth can be seen. 

I can just simply lie and pass it off, you'd never know if i don't tell. But I chose not to. I'd rather you be pissed at me. Cause I know you're genuine, you're a friend to keep, therefore I chose to be truthful. Maybe in other words, truthful is equivalent to "plain stupid", but i don't care. 

Late for classes, getting shitty grades, assignments, doesn't bother me as much as this kind of thing. I wish i'm the type who only study study study and don't care no shit. Maybe that's why I can't be a person of big ambitions, chasing after big dreams, up in the corporate ladder. 

Maybe after today........